Attack of the Mommy Drones

SIGH!!!

I received this little tidbit in the newsletter from my daughter's school.  It appears we have lost our collective minds.  My comments (in red below):

(From Love and Logic by Dr. Charles Fay)

The "Energy Drain" approach was created to give adults a practical way of creating logical consequences that teach responsibility. Simply stated, the child (or teen) is required to replace energy "drained" from the adult by their misbehavior.
He lost me at "hello."  This is so NOT a logical consequence.  "Oh, John, how do you plan to replace the energy you drained from me when you blew that sale?" said no boss ever.

Deliver a strong dose of sincere empathy. "This is so sad."    
This isn't sad.  Puppies dying is sad.  Back-talking is not sad.  Let's not mix up the kid's emotions.  If we are going to deliver a strong dose of anything here, it should be "I know you didn't just (fill in the blank)." or, if we're going the feeling route, "Now you've gone and pissed me off."  Both are appropriate responses.

 Notify the youngster that their misbehavior drained your energy. "Oh sweetie. When you lie to me (or almost any other misbehavior), it drains energy right out of me."   

Said Scarlett O'Hara.  

Ask how he or she plans to replace the energy. "How are you planning to put that energy back?"  
Seriously?  You are asking a CHILD this?  Children don't know how they are going to put the orange juice back in the fridge half the time. 

If you hear, "I don't know," (You'll be lucky if you hear that much.  You'll probably just get a look like you are some sort of alien.) offer some payback options. "Some kids decide to do some of their mom's chores. How would that work? (Um, are they supposed to answer that honestly?) Some kids decide to hire and pay for a babysitter, so their parents can go out and relax. How would that work?"  
Oh for the love of God... You tell me, Mom.  How does that work? I don't see the kids caring that their hard-earned cash is being spent to get rid of you for an evening of burned-through bedtimes and junk food.

If the child completes the chores, thank them and don't lecture. "Thanks so much! I really appreciate it."  If the child refuses or forgets, don't warn or remind. Remember: Actions speak louder than words!     
Forgive me for being so literal here, but I think what you've said here is that 1) your child is being punished by being made to do your chores 2) your child didn't do said chores 3) you aren't warning them or reminding them of said chores 4) you believe they will eventually get around to it  5) you really haven't done this before, have you?

Oh, but what you want us to do is:

As a last resort, go on strike OR sell a toy to pay for the drain.  "What a bummer. I just don't think I have the energy to take you to Silly Willie's Fun Park this weekend." Or "What a bummer. You forgot to do those chores. No problem. I sold your Mutant Death Squad action figure to pay for a babysitter tonight." 

What kind of ubercrappy mind play is this?  Are we serious?  This is the very kind of back-handed manipulation that makes supertastically awful adults.  Don't you love those people?  You know the ones.  "Oh gee, since you didn't call me back when I texted you 50 times yesterday, I just figured you didn't care about your computer files any more so I deleted them all.  Bummer." 

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DISCLAIMER:  I love my daughter's school.  Seriously love it.  In no way is this a reflection on the school itself.
DISCLAIMER #2:  I do not yell at, spank, or disrespect my children in any way.  I was the original Attachment Parent (see Dr. Sears).
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A Happy Moment (or 26)

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- Kec

Gonna Party Like it’s !

What is it about New Year's that leaves us weeping over the 'Year in Review' issue of People Magazine we hold in one hand while simultaneously jotting down incredibly optimistic goals for the upcoming year on a notepad in the other? (Or is that just me?)

 

It’s an annual thing for me, this nostalgia and optimism.  I always think it’s gonna’ be great.  I always think I’m going to joyfully ring in midnight and I’m going to march forward creating a well-rounded, self-actualized, perfected version of me.

The reality, however, tends to find me on New Year’s Eve nursing a cocktail and a bruised psyche.  The reality generally finds me all alone as the clock strikes midnight, watching the ball drop and the folks in New York losing their collective minds on time delay, and lovers passionately ringing in the New Year. 

How I get the idea of how great this New Year’s Eve is going to be, I’ll never know.  In all my years I think I’ve had two happy and up-to-expectation experiences on this blurry night.  One was with an ex-then-current boyfriend on a river boat when I hadn’t really broken up with the current-soon-to-be-ex boyfriend back at home.  It was a perfect night despite my conscience nagging at me like Jiminy freaking Cricket the whole time.  The other was a party we hosted up in Palmdale that was planned out to the nines and, even to my party planning standards, was simply the best New Year’s party ever.  Outside of those two instances, though, I can share a litany of pathetic stories of kisses that didn’t happen, and “Happy New Year"s that didn’t get shouted joyfully into the rafters, and 2:00 a.m. runs to rescue drunken friends from the side of the road (you know who you are).

They weren’t ALL bad, mind you.  Over the years Cheyanne and I came up with a tradition to bring in the night together switching between Dick Clark and MTV in our warm, safe home.  Those were fun, silly nights but the first year I broke that tradition began the Curse of the Really Bad New Year’s Eves.  Since then, they have consistently been solo and somewhat sad.  The worst part - always - is having no one to kiss as that stupid disco ball slips down its stripper pole.

One time, in the past 6 years, my wee one actually woke up right at midnight.  I was just about to go off the edge in my misery when she stirred in her sleep.  Funny enough I was writing a journal entry at that exact moment.  Here’s the excerpt from that entry: "Dia woke up – 1 minute to midnight.  I was going to write a 5 year goal and a one year goal, and a ton of New Year’s resolutions, but I think I’ll just snuggle with her and go to bed.  It was nice to give someone a kiss at midnight.  She is … she is what’s so right about everything right now."  She gave me perspective that night and since then I haven’t had such disappointing Eves.  Of course, that was just 2 years ago, so I’ve only tested that out once so far…

Besides the failed celebrations, I can’t forget the failed resolutions.  Every year you can find me right here resolutioning and goaling and planning for the coming year’s New and Improved Best Katie Ever to be exhibited at this year’s Human Show.  (I kind of wish they really had those.  You know – like car shows?  “Here we have the 2013 Katie, a more roomy model than previous years…”)  

Already this year is proving to be no different as I’m struggling to focus on my work (and look – I’m writing this instead) and have a notepad next to me to jot down ideas for what I really want me to do this year: Practice piano, read more, work out more regularly, meditate and manage my stress better.  I have a ton of wishes on what I want to be when I grow up too, but I don’t even want to mention that 5 year goal or even a 1 year goal.  How exactly does one find Prince Charming (no – seriously – the one from "Enchanted"), make a gazillion dollars and become a best-selling author without leaving home? So I’ll concentrate on the more doable things. Check in with me on January 3^rd and see how that’s working out for me…

So ... back to tonight:  Yeah, it’s gonna’ be great.  But this year?  It seriously is going to be great.  Know why?  Because one thing I DID do in 2012 was figure out how to love the ordinary.  I learned that to be truly happy a spectacular fairy-tale world isn’t necessary, a brilliant career isn’t necessary, an exciting adventure isn’t necessary.  I have a blessed ordinary life and that alone, is more than so many.  So tonight I’ll have a sparkling glass of something, find an east coast streaming of that blasted ball and its far more blasted audience, have 12 grapes as the clock strikes midnight ET and give my skinny little girl a big fat kiss.  Then I’ll tuck her in, meditate, practice some piano, do 20 minutes on the rowing machine and then 50 sit ups, 20 push ups and finish up with 3 chapters out of one of the books on my bedstand.  I might even be asleep before midnight our time.

Or not.  I might just get drunk.

Happy 2013 everybody!

Pinkie Promise

“Mama, I’m scared.” She shivers and scoots nervously down on her pillow nestling her body closer to mine.

“It’s OK, my love” I respond, knowing what is coming next. 

“Pinkie promise I’ll wake up in the morning?” 

“I promise, my love.  I promise.” 

This is her nightly routine.  While other kids are tucking themselves in, or enjoying a nightly story and a kiss goodnight, my little girl is begging me to promise that she will live through the night. 

Months ago when this all started I would assure her with a thousand words.  I explained how the doctors would surely know if she were close to death, how she isn’t sick like that, how I will stay right there with her and make sure she’s fine all night.  A thousand words.  Eventually, though, they became repetitive and meaningless.  A simple promise is as close to extinguishing her fears as I can get.

Along with her medical doctors, we have a worry doctor who has given me her stamp of approval for my nightly pinkie promise.  In the adult world we know all too well that I can’t actually promise that.  Recent tragic events prove I can’t even legitimately promise she’ll  come home from school alive, but I view it as a promise in good faith:  With the information I have available to me at this time, I know for certain I can promise that she will make it through the night.  

So my pinkie promise comforts her, albeit for a short 24 hours.  Yet her nightly need for that reassurance haunts me every second of every day. 

I try to reason with myself.  I think I know where this comes from.  She’s lost too much in her 6 years.  In fact, she often will list each person and animal that has passed on.  The worst part is there isn’t a nice simple answer for why they died like I had when I was little.  Back then my experience was that  the only things or people that died were all terribly old.   The death Dia has known has struck the very young, the very old, the sick and the injured and so Dia believes herself vulnerable.  No matter how often I tell her so, she doesn’t have the understanding that she isn’t terminally ill.  To her?  Sick is sick and sick equals dying.   

Any fellow moms out there?  Yeah?  Well, think about  facing your child’s mortality every.single.night.  Humbling?  Hardly.  More like dancing with insanity.

It is so easy to look at Dia and see a healthy child.  I watch her laughing, swimming, running around with her friends, playing, twirling and rough-housing with her brother, riding her bike… she looks typical, normal, healthy.   It is incredibly easy during those times to convince myself that she is absolutely one hundred percent fine.  Sometimes other parents will even point out these moments and comment that “she looks fine now.”  They are right.  She does look fine then, but afterwards she comes home and basically collapses… or the fever hits again … or I get her on the scale and she’s lost weight again… or the brown skin she so proudly wears turns terribly pale and her eyes become sunken and encircled in black.  She pays for every moment she tries to be a normal kid.  She acts and looks sick and then, once again, I know this is for real.  The reality is that she is not, in actuality, a healthy kid.

I hate it.  I can feel the rage building.  I want to destroy it.  But “it” doesn’t have a name.   I need to know what dragon to slay, what demon to exorcise, what ass to kick.  I want to know what is making my child weak and unable to keep up with her friends on the playground.  I want to know what is making my daughter need a bedtime routine that is so absolutely and completely unjustly wrong.  I want whatever is accountable for this to show itself.  Let us face off man-to-man.  Let me know my enemy so I can take it in my bare hands and twist its neck until all life fades from its being.

….sigh…

I have good doctors for Dia.  I really do.  I know they are going through the processes they must to diagnose her.  I understand we have a process of elimination type of situation going on here.  I also thank God and all the angels in heaven that they aren’t just admitting her and running down all the possibilities in one fell swoop.  This particular child would be ruined by that type of treatment.  They are doing right by her.  I know this. 

And she will make it through the night.  I know this too. 

All the same?  I will stay right here next to her and make sure she’s fine.  Just like I promised.   

- kec

Both Sides of the Mouth

Last night in the debate, MITT ROMNEY, in reference to the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution, SAID:

..."Second, in that line that says, we are endowed by our Creator with our rights -- I believe we must maintain our commitment to religious tolerance and freedom in this country. That statement also says that we are endowed by our Creator with the right to pursue happiness as we choose. I interpret that as, one, making sure that those people who are less fortunate and can’t care for themselves are cared by -- by one another. 

We’re a nation that believes we’re all children of the same God. And we care for those that have difficulties -- those that are elderly and have problems and challenges, those that disabled, we care for them. And we look for discovery and innovation, all these thing desired out of the American heart to provide the pursuit of happiness for our citizens. 

But we also believe in maintaining for individuals the right to pursue their dreams, and not to have the government substitute itself for the rights of free individuals. And what we’re seeing right now is, in my view, a -- a trickle-down government approach which has government thinking it can do a better job than free people pursuing their dreams. And it’s not working."

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So ... let me be clear on this.  Tell me again, Mr. Romney, exactly why you are against gay marriage - politically.  Are not the gay members of our society allowed freedom from religious rhetoric?  Are they not allowed to pursue happiness as they choose?  Are they not the children of the same God?  And I take it that you mean to say that all individuals have the right to pursue their dreams and not have the government substitute itself for the rights of free individuals UNLESS they are gay.  Correct?   

Just checking.